i have no idea why im feeling like this

can i escape into my nearest castle please.
its only a hundred and eighteen/nineteen days to my next O level paper.
i have no idea what im doing here, typing away as if i still have many days left.

I took the time to reflect on what im doing and i feel as if i have none nothing that deserves any praise.
This is my most important year but i have no idea why im not trying at all.
Somehow i feel like deep down inside it's because i feel like there's no point trying?
my foundation is so bad i cant do maths or science properly
its not even like i hate the subjects? i try but i fail so miserably all the time that i just feel like giving up
I thought very far into the future but im not even close to achieving my nearest goals